Sometimes I wonder if I will ever stay in one place too long. I wonder if one day the wheels will just stop. I wonder if one day I’ll look around and realize that I’m finally home. Austin has won my heart in many ways but even still, I think of life on the other side. Maybe South America, maybe Europe, maybe just somewhere remote in Montana. Somewhere where life is slow. I would beat the 40-hour work week, grow my own food and read tons of books…maybe even write a book, or learn to sew. Of course, I would bring my mister friend with me.
In April, Chris and I started a runaway jar. Every day, we throw our loose change in it. Sometimes I sneak bills in there in hopes to speed up the process. I don’t know if we will ever actually use that jar, or if having it sit in my bedroom is comfort enough. I do know that if one day we decide to break the jar open, I’ll have an entire world of ideas on where to go, and what to read when we get there.
“You know, I believe we live two lives…
The life we learn with and the life we live after that.”
- Bernard Malamud
“In those days the Earth was still flat,
and people dreamed often of falling over edges.”
– Tom Robbins
“There are two lives that we have right now.
The first is the life we live. The second is the life that we really desire to live.”
– Bil Cornelius
“I was too curious about the future to look back.”- Patti Smith
“We shall not cease from exploration, and the end of all our exploring
will be to arrive where we started and know the place for the first time.”
- T.S. Eliot
- T.S. Eliot
“We all need someone to look at us. We can be divided into four categories according to the kind of look we wish to live under: the first category longs for the look of an infinite number of anonymous eyes, in other words, for the look of the public. That is the case with the german singer, the american actress. The second category is made up of people who have a vital need to be looked at by many known eyes. They are the tireless hosts of cocktail parties and dinners. Then there is the third category, the category of people who need to be constantly before the eyes of the person they love. And finally there is the fourth category, the rarest, the category of people who live in the imaginary eyes of those who are not present. They are the dreamers.” – Milan Kundera (from one of my favorite books, The Unbearable Lightness of Being)
